I cannot help but fill up with happy tears as I am sitting in my room with three different candle scents burning, my mason jar sitting beautifully on my dresser with white roses filling it, a summer breeze blowing through window, country music streaming through my laptop, and a sense of “ahhh” running through my body.
A little bit more than a month ago, my best friend looked at me and said he was walking away. And that’s exactly what he did. He walked out my door and never looked back. It was one of those life-changing events that you aren’t even sure how to react-I couldn’t feel my heart, I leaned over the toilet for what felt like forever waiting to throw-up, and I looked at the mirror wondering why the hell that just happened.
The tears were different then they’ve ever been and my mom was on her way to pick me up to bring me back “home”. I want to be the one to tell you that no matter what kind of break-up you go through, you will be alright. I’m living proof. My advice to you? The same advice I gave in one of my HP articles:
Go out with your girls, take advantage of someone actually buying you a drink, and don’t be afraid to go on a date or two. Find whatever you can in your life that is positive and just completely surround yourself in it. That reservoir you keep passing on your way to work? Yeah, actually stop by it tomorrow.
Start thriving, start working out again, start a meditation routine. Pick up a new craft, find a new job, and just go. Travel on the weekends, don’t be afraid to take the left at the fork, and definitely make a good CD. Start living your life to the fullest-THRIVE it out and start fresh.
I promise you, it’s truly the little things that are going to matter the most in getting over him. It won’t be easy, in fact it definitely won’t be easy, but trust me when I say it won’t be impossible. Without even realizing it, you’re going to spend a lot of time just doing you.
Be yourself, laugh, and get weird. You will definitely have a few nights where the tears won’t stop, but when you wake up in the morning and realize the sun is shining a bit brighter than the day before, you’ll realize you made it through another day.
There may be a lot of questions left unanswered, but there is a lot of change going on at the same time. It’s not making me forget it happened, but it’s reminding me that life keeps moving and it’s your choice if you are going to sit there or jump on the train and move with it.
You’ll be okay. I’m okay. In fact, I’m amazing. Looking at my life six months ago, I could never imagine this would have happened. Looking at my life a month ago, I would have sat there and asked you “how the hell am I going to get through this?” Well, I’m here, on the other side, telling you I was so wrong for wondering if I could get through it.
I’m through it and I couldn’t thank my friends and family enough for giving me the strength and throwing me back my confidence. I haven’t laughed as much as I have been these past few weeks, haven’t realized how amazing my friends truly are until now, and couldn’t feel any more sexy (Dad, if you’re reading this…sorry) than I do right now. Life has a super funny way of working out and I’m kind of excited to see what is to come.